There’s not a whole lot of actors that make me sad when they pass. It’s mostly the musicians because I feel like musicians hold just a whole other level of talent but when I heard that Andre Braugher passed yesterday I was saddened because it made me think of his role in a movie called Duets. In that movie his rendition of Free Bird was so poetic and poignant and sad and beautiful. One of the best a cappella performances of Free Bird that I’ve ever heard.
It’s strange to think that we have visceral reactions to the death of people we’ve never met before. I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing when Prince, Stevie Ray Vaughn, and Sinead O’Connor passed. I remember how I felt when I heard Robin Williams, Princess Di and George Michael all passed away. I’ve never met any of those people yet they’ve all been rooted in some sort of my brain and my heart. Those are just my thoughts right now but I wanted to share this performance from him because I think it’s beautiful.
I’m sitting here watching Yellowstone and being envious of Rip and Beth’s relationship. It’s a damn cold night with the wind biting outside and the temperature which feels like 10 degrees and it keeps dropping. I’m warm and toasty on the couch with a heated blanket and some decaf coffee and being in my head way too much.
There’s a convenience store that I frequently go to and there’s this older Indian gentleman that works there. Every time I’ve gone in there he flirts and always asks when I’ll let him take me out. Today I went in an he’d purchased me a Christmas gift of perfume. That puts a whole new spin on “If he wanted to he would” which I don’t actually believe in but here we are. I bring him up because I’ve been blessed this year with gift baskets, cash, and iPad, beauty products and more and I haven’t even gone to Christmas with my family yet. Those were all private clients. I am thankful for everyone that has blessed me or told me how important I am to them. It’s nice to hear.
One of the guys I was telling you about and I were speaking because I’d gotten bored and actually returned his call and we started talking about Yellowstone and why girls go crazy for Rip and Beth. If you’ve seen the show you’ll understand. If you haven’t then you really should. It’s a good show. But I explained my reasons because I see myself in Beth a lot. Rip can pull out the coldness in her and just by one passion filled, pulled in face kiss she forgets everything. That’s what I need. I need a guy to let me be vulnerable and it be ok.
I need a man that can soften my sharp edges and one who can put me in my place forcefully but yet kind. Plus I need that kind of strength in a man but that can also be extremely vulnerable. Vulnerability is a sexy trait. I also need to find someone that’s on some sort of spiritual journey as well. One that likes meditation, clean eating and just making themselves better daily. I’m a hypocrite since I’ve not been doing well these last few weeks but I’m getting better.
I don’t know, I’m in a weird head space tonight. I think it has to do with the weather, the long drive in a day and a few other things. Either way I’m spacey. Anyway, enjoy your holiday. Have a wonderful time and maybe tell someone something that will make them feel good. xxx
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