Happy New Years Eve and in about 2 hours, Happy New Year. I have decided, as I’m recuperating from getting Covid, that I’m staying home this evening. I’m cleaning, meditation and getting things in order for next year to be so much better than 2021.
I’ve spent my entire adult life thinking that I had to go out on New Years or party or do all these crazy traditions. In fact, one of my closest friends and I would do this whole New Years tradition these last few years and eat the 12 grapes at midnight, wear the right color panties and write down all these resolutions or write down things that we were letting go of and burn them. What I realized is that none of those things really worked also because I was never in the right headspace to believe in them anyway.
These last few months have been more about getting my head right to go after or be ready for what I actually, truly want in my life. What I want is something new, a new attitude or career or love. I am going to spend most of my free time making myself better for me and whoever I will have my next relationship with.
That’s why I chose this song tonight. I believe that we create our reality and I believe that all of us Queens deserve to be with the Kings of our dreams. That is what I am manifesting is a mutually respectful, romantic, fun and amazing relationship with a man that I can take care of as much as he can take care of me… This is a new outlook for me because I’m so used to being alone and independent. I am ready for something different. This time around it’s different because I don’t feel like I need it. I truly want it and I’m ready and I’m clearing space for this to come in. Even though I’m tired and resting tonight I feel empowered and energized for a new year and something new coming in to my life, even if it’s made out of the old.
For the last day of this year I am grateful for all the people I met this year, to all the people that I’ve spent time with and to all the music, experiences and love that’s been sent or received. I am grateful to all of you who read these words of mine and for the opportunity to share music with you all. My wish is for you all to have an amazing night and New Years day. XXX
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