Okay, so last night was a fluffy of new years goals, lists of different things and a recap of last year. I’d already posted about the bad things that happened to entertainment last year but what I haven’t done is recap my year.
I’ve said enough bad things about it but it wasn’t to do with anyone else really. Most of what was bad about it was just a feeling of depression and being lonely in a room full of people. I wrestled with a lot of my own demons and it wasn’t until toward the end of the year that I really started to feel better. But before that I’d lost my momentum on my jar challenge.
If you remember, the jar challenge was recreated at the beginning of last year and it involved me writing on a slip of paper the good moments, the LOL moments and the happy moments of life. It’s not that they stopped but I just stopped writing them. So, in predictable fashion I’m going to tell you some of those now.
Spending the day with THE friend at our downtown aquarium and being able to enjoy the day.
Going to a concert on July the 4th with THE friend (there might be a lot of these in these) and going afterward to get ice cream floats.
Realizing that both my niece and THE friend do this forehead thing where they just put their forehead on mine. He’s not done it in a while though.
Having a heart-to-heart with both my boss and his girlfriend and their thanks afterward.
At the beginning of the year when THE friend reached out, apologized and we started to form a relationship again.
My GBF’s birthday party… It’s was so much fun!
Going to a friends wedding and meeting a guy we called “pony” and having him request and dance to some crazy shit.
Going to my GBF and I’s favorite restaurant and meeting a waiter who had a crush on me and always gave me free meals and drinks.
Changing direction with the career I have. Gaining a better position and officially being a business owner with less hours and a little less stress.
Going to see a bunch of movies.
Watching Oscar night with THE friend.
Spending a birthday weekend with my BFF and starting our fictional band, me as the singer and air drums and her on guitar and bass… I don’t it sounds silly but it totally rocked. We also had this whole Magic Mike thing AND a sexy photo shoot and a lip-sync battle thing.
Going to my BFF’s and my restaurant and having a seriously drunk guy buy us drinks all night.
My GBF and my BFF hanging out together for the first time.
Going through a ton of clothes at the beginning of the year with the help of my GBF and his sister who kindly took it all to Goodwill for me.
The party for me the night before my birthday.
Hanging out with another one of my best girl friends and her new son.
Meeting the “new guy” who just made me realize that I AM good enough and the feeling of someone falling in love with me. It’s an amazing and powerful things.
Spending time with my ex and realizing, again, that I AM good enough and the feeling of someone still being in love with me even with all my flaws.
All the occasions that THE friend actually had a compliment to give. I remember and smile.
My old boss realizing just what he lost when I no longer worked for him and his numerous apologies.
THE friend turning into the most beautiful OCD hulk and cleaning and organizing my kitchen.
Getting in exercise when I truly didn’t feel like doing it. This will be better this year though.
Coming up with hilarious reasons for my BFF as to why she couldn’t have sex with someone. They were outrageous and insane.
More than one sexy photo shoot was had and they were so much fun to do.
Our new years eve party last year 2015-2016 was pretty amazing.
Seeing an old friend that I hadn’t seen in twenty years and him remembering me as a young teenager.
Becoming friends with my boss’s girlfriend who I actually have a lot in common with.
Getting hugs and kisses from THE friend.
One particular blogger which I’ve gotten to know this year who has absolutely made my day on more than one occasion. Being able to call her a friend. Thank you DLJ!
Getting flowers and a gift from THE friend when both were truly unexpected.
THE friend cleaning the bathroom.
Spending all the good holidays with THE friend: Easter, Valentine’s Day, Christmas and my birthday even though he didn’t actually know it was my birthday.
Having THE friend make a birthday cake for me, and awesome pancakes.
There were so many other moments that didn’t make it into that jar and I fear that they will be forgotten but I’m glad that I have those moments that I can cherish. Instead of doing the jar challenge this year I’ve decided to have a Gratitude journal instead. As much as I like typing on my blog I also, very much enjoy the lost art of physically writing something.
While I stare at a large pile of streamers from last night and wondering how they made it this far without being swept up in the cleaning I’m reminded that each year I resolve to have better cleaning habits. That is changing this year. What I mean by that is I’m not making any resolutions or goals. I’m going to enjoy life a bit more and do a lot more things for myself.
There will be things that I want to accomplish and I will attempt those but I will not be killing myself or getting my feelings hurt if it wasn’t accomplished. I want to try new things and meet new people but still cherish the people that are already in my life.
While I will probably always want to be in a more meaning role in THE friends life I have no expectations and have let go of any hope for the better. I have resigned to the fact that I will never be the girl that will make him happy no matter how hard I try. This means I stop trying so hard and just be myself and that’s not a bad place to be.
So far this year has already been great. I hope you are having a great year as well and it continues to stay that way. Care to share any of your great moments of last year?
It’s now 1 am January 2nd and I am too excited to sleep so I feel like cleaning. Nite all.